Precious--Love

She tries so hard , to do good at home and all she gets is , You could have done better . She tries to please , her parents everyday and all she gets is , screaming in her face . She tries to get her chores , all done on time and all she gets is , Get them done right . She tries to help , with everything she can and all she gets is , a big " FUCK YOU" She tries to believe , that there is a way out and all she gets is , another day in hell .

 I sit here all alone , holding in all i have to say . Cant someone see me crying here ? I cry here everyday . I want to shout out why , why i sit here and cry . But if someone gets to know the real me , they will leave me and just walk away . I am crying from the pain , the love and the hunger , If your wondering why i am feeling this , you'll just have to wonder . To me it seems so clear , like its written on my face , You try to read me , but your guesses are so far out in space . I try to get to the light , but i still cant get out of this hall . Cant you see me dying here ? Its Written On The Wall .

I get a funny feeling , it comes from deep insinde . I get all mad and angry , wanting to go and hide . My doctor says its depression , my dad says its just me . But the thoughts and feelings , no on will be able to see . Some say im psycho , some say im just wierd . Its like im a different person , like the old me dissappeared . I get really edgy , i want to scream everything so bad . Then i get a headache , followed by being sad . I wish i could get help , i wish it's all go away . Maybe if i pray real hard , it will all go away .

When i see you , im nervous , im stuttering , Im tingling , and butterflies in my stomach are fluttering . I must dreaming in all denial , I stand next to you , i uncontrollably smile . Intelligent is definitely an understatement for you , Your artistry is unexplainable , pure and true . My heartbeat racing , im timid and shy too , All this happened when i set eyes on you . <3

If tonight i die, who will cry? Strangers with there disasterous interests, While the ones i love have turned their backs. And what if my best isn't good enough for no one, What more shall i give? Go ahead and walk away, i dont care, Just leave me here alone and by myself. And if tonight i die, who will cry? All the strength i have has been drained, I have nothing left to give, I am drowning in my own depths of all my sorrow, I have no tears left to cry. A silent voice with distant eyes, That nobody seems to hear or see. And if tonight i doe, who will cry?

I wish i was a little kid again, All crawled up in mommies arms. I want to hear the words "It'll be all right'' Just onces more. As she lightly strokes my hair. Cause teenage problems seem so darn tough. And its hard to face them by myself. I wish i was a little kid again, All crawled up in mommies arms.

Most people admit that i zone out a lot, Truth is, i can't stan staying awake, Because every moment I am awake, I die a little inside... I hate how i live in a world, Nobody understands whats happening, How nobody understands ME. And if they do, then they obviously dont like what they see.

I never meant to break, i never meant to fall, i didnt mean to run right back into that wall. But times like these are really hard on a girl like me. I didnt mean to go back to the old ways, i thought i convinced myself that, that was just a phase. that it would be over. But i geuss i lied to myself, and i lied to you, when i said i could make it through. I never said i wanted this, I want to be happy, amazed, perfect. I would like to live my life again, without this defect. But i geuss we all dont get what we want, and all the old scars come back to haunt.